Hello Newbie Soul Seeker-Stop Chasing Shallow Practices
Find Out What Your Soul Needs
You feel hollow inside.
You start looking for every new spiritual technique available.
You rush around, unable to keep up with them all. Maybe you practice for a week or two, then you are on to the next spiritual technique.
A new practice gets your attention.
You end up back on the wheel again. You repeat this process endlessly. You are still empty.
Cycle of Chasing Spiritual Techniques
I spent 20 years doing this. Money wasted on expensive programs that delivered nothing. Even worse was all the time I wasted.
My time is worth more than the money.
This becomes a horrible cycle. You keep chasing the programs, but now you feel worse about yourself — all the money is gone.
Your self-esteem is low because if nothing helps, then you are more broken than you think.
We are rushing around, slapping a band-aid on wounds that need deeper care. This wound is so ingrained in you that you don’t want to give it up. Your whole identity depends on the wound.
Our beliefs are another thing that doesn’t let wounds heal. We believe that life is painful. It takes tremendous energy to overcome anything — no pain then no gain.
People Don’t Like Your Change
The people you surround yourself with make healing this wound difficult. You work hard to make the changes you want. You are changing your role in life, and people don’t like it.
They are lazy because they don’t want to change with you. New you mean they have to change too. You are not the same person so they can’t react the same way. Change takes more work than you are worth.
I started and stopped changing so many times I lost count. I even lost sight of myself because I always wore different masks. I felt like a wisp of smoke. There was no solidness to me.
Finally, I reached a breaking point. It felt like my life was in shambles around me. I felt so broken and scared. I put myself figuratively, in a box I couldn’t move. I had to stop what I was doing, not to mention the look at the financial mess I had.
My Wall Of Consciousness Stares Back At Me
I sat in a chair and looked at the wall. My mind was running at light speed. My breathing was shallow. I started taking deep breaths. My mind quieted.
I just sat and watched myself. Below the mind of my ego was a silence that just watched. I watched back. We stared at each other for a few minutes.
The silence moved closer to me. It surrounded me. I sensed questions. The silence wondered what was so broken or wrong? The way that things were at that moment was perfect. Why would there be so much anger and sadness when life was joyful?
The silence moved back, and my mind started spinning. The silent experience was only a few seconds, but it was enough. I started watching my mind.
I didn’t have a dialogue with it. I just watched it. I felt the words that caused me so much pain.
Finding The Voices Needing Deep Care
You can do this too. Sit and watch your mind. Your thoughts are the source of most wounds that need deep care. The voices sound like people from your life.
These voices are lies — every one of them. Don’t give them energy and they will quiet to a whisper.
“Awakening is not changing who you are, but discarding who you are not.” — — -Deepak Chopra
Know that you are not broken. You are perfect as you are right now. Find your silence inside if you don’t believe me. It’s there waiting to meet you.
Lying Voices Tell You Who You Are
The voices are also tools to learn about yourself. What you believe to be true. Use this knowledge as power. And it is power. Compare the ideas of the voices and what is actual reality. They disagree. That is why they are lies.
Once I understood all of this. I knew the tools I was looking for. I only needed a couple. They were free. Maybe the price of a book. The rest of the lies fell like dominoes as I took out the first few. Now, things were pretty quiet.
Do this for yourself. Understand your thoughts, and you understand yourself. Then, you see the tools you need. It won’t be everything that you have been chasing. It will be the tools that give you peace.